thejuliettecollet

  strangest dream last night (probably because it happened after a night of drinking) I'm on this family vacation and it's in the most terrifying mall-resort. There are white lights and escalators everywhere. I complain and think about how my sister says I ruin everything by thinking too much. I am shown to my room where three young girl cousins play with this breed of baby animal i've never seen before. It's super cute and furry. They leave and I see next to my bed I have been provided with all different sorts of dildo-vibrator-sex-toy-things. I get under the covers and start using them. IT's really cool cause they feel unlike anything I have ever felt. Then my aunt walks in, I try to turn off the vibrator, she doesnt realize at first but then I'm moving around a bunch trying to turn the thing off and it's clear she understands. She goes oh and leaves and I start back up again. Then,  SHE COMES BACK IN to say something to me. She only pops in but I'm re...

 I've spent the past week watching Justin Triet's ENTIRE filmography... She is the brilliant writer/director behind this years, "Anatomy of a fall" I saw that film with my mom who was watching it for the second time (the highest praise available). I realized I had already seen one of her films with Madeline months before(Sybyll). I really loved the movie but Madeline hated it. I think because it was flashy, mellow-dramatic and ultimately wrong triumphed right - But I could totally feel that the film was completely self-aware! That's the difference really.  Anyways. Most of her films are in french. If you have just a little time, watch her short - Two Ships.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0WRYaiEycPA Wow! Can't believe it's on youtube for free. The main actress stars in a feature film by Triet which may be my favorite, "Age of Panic". Alright, back to the subject at hand, Me. I switch up my plan for after I graduate every week... but this week I...

 today's dance-outfit : fuck with me.

 It's so fun to be a no-talent waste-of-space.

 Will be spending my mornings choreographing this dance-art-piece I've been wanting to do forever. Not really much to the piece, except I as an amateur dancer will be doing a one-take full-5-minute choreographed piece. It's really endearing to see an amateur giving it their best.  Lovely bones.

 do not even entertain aspiring to such greatness, you would fall on your face.

 uhh.... check please we served.

 a goal of mine has been not to get caught up in the personal and petty. i believe in our individual ability to affect positive change on the larger whole, so that's what I prefer to concern myself with. i try not to linger too long on my personal suffering, although I can't fully help it yet.  the couple that I used to be involved with seem to be doing very fine without me. this initially comes as a pang to my ego, but eventually i am happy for them and awed. this is not my natural immediate response, but it is the one I have decided is right.  As long as I am learning something, I am happy.