thejuliettecollet

my brother knows how to have a good time, but I know how to have a bad time.

 

 want to masturbate... it's been weeks. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A4R09hfAbJU

 Dad says I say, "fucking" too much.... well, it's an emphatic word. Scottsdale Arizona is a cultural wasteland of bourgeois decadence.  It inspires a similar angst as Los Angeles.  Yesterday I went on a walk only to end up in an endless parking lot. I played my new Elliot Smith cd on my new portable CD player and sat down on the red "no parking" curb and cried. Good times. All in all I'm doing well. Especially since I bought a book yesterday: Rules for Radicals by Saul Alinksy So well written.      "The mark of a free man is that ever-gnawing uncertainty as to whether or not he is right." Dad is picking up weed at the dispo. Asked if I needed anything. Edibles.

 am in the "guitar-themed" bedroom of the house fingers crossed for myself

  am suffering from chronic social shock. why do we sit around and talk about things that aren't important OR funny? wouldn't we all be better off if we read up separately, then came together when we actually had something to say? my sister says i ruin things by thinking too much... maybe i am just unhappy. am in love with jeff mangum the lead singer of neutral milk, something about the way he tucks his hair behind his ears.... (on top of the genius and the humanity of the music as well!) have new elliot smith cds... oh boy. Having an emo field-day over here!!!

 how's a law-abiding-lass s'pposed to get her kicks anyhow??  maybe, it is time for a : GLAMOROUS VACATION! paint your toenails and pour me a glass of sum'n fruity.... floaty floaty life... tethers are inopportune and offensive!

coucou ma cherie  

  me n my wife look so good together...  at a certain point, I have to fight bitches off with a fucking baseball bat because they all want a goddamn piece of me. moments... feeling less and more special as they rise in number.  and listening now to a Neutral Milk Hotel concert from 1998 on youtube. It only starts 16 minutes in, but lord it is so good. And good things make me so incredibly hopeful, that we are not all damned, that humanity is redeemable and all that good stuff. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yXNS5BYfnkU