why? why? why?

 

I made snow owls with the kid I babysit, it was my favorite part of hanging out with her because I wan't interacting with her, I was interacting with snow. Snow is a lot more friendly and interesting than she is. Although, it can't eat a cheese stick the way that she can.

Can you believe that people think I'm crazy? All my actions and motivations make so much sense to me. 

And if things aren't always reasonable, at least they are humorous most of the time.

With this kind of public forum, I get self conscious about all the people who grievously hate me because of my decisions in the field of love. I know/hope they are not reading this but I think of them all the same, it is my own personal little devil of self comparison and flagellation. If you are one of said people, know, you are winning!

I am hoping to be more brave. I felt the bravest when I had nothing. But maybe that is an easy kind of bravery.

It is too cold to draw. What a lame excuse, but I know it is true. I am also too sick and too on my period and too post-work.

I am quitting my job, and my life. The only thing I am not quitting is Nate, in fact, I am doubling down.

It has been working out for me so far. He seems to be the kind of person who will pour whatever I pour into him back into me and more. He has the best heart I have met so far. 

Some people make it a competition, they want to have the biggest, but his is natural.

I hope all of my enemies will allow me to be happy, I realize I am just talking to myself.